Thursday, April 15, 2010

The one where I pee on a stick.

I know that there are people in this world who get pregnant easily. MTV has procured enough knocked up high school kids to produce two full seasons of "16 and Pregnant." Michelle Duggar is getting ready to pop out her 19th kid. I know a woman who got pregnant while taking the pill. But apparently it takes an act of friggin' Congress to get me an infant.

Did I mention that we want another kid? I'm sure it comes as a surprise, given my affection for grumbling and harrumphing, but we do. And so far it's going about as well as you'd expect, assuming you were expecting nothing. I'd always heard that if you got pregnant once, your body knew what to do. Yeah... no. It's not like I'm new to the game. I know all about ovulation and charts and blah and blah so why no baby? To add insult to injury, my set-your-watch-by-it cycle decided to come a week early so I'm getting my hormone levels checked on Tuesday to make sure I'm not entering early menopause, which might be the least sexy sentence I've ever typed.

All this is a long-winded way of apologizing for not being around much. It's embarrassing to whine about wanting another child. It's a waste of worry to fear that I'm past my prime so I've been ignoring this blog and self-medicating with leftover Easter candy and Gilmore Girls. (I'm up the the Jess years.) I feel boring and a little blue and who wants to read about that? But I promise to snap out of it and start yelping about potty training soon, because nothing says love like an entry about poop.


ktbuffy said...

I know _exactly_ how you feel. It's fun and sexy to joke about "working on it", but every month when you find out it didn't work is like, "oh yeah, you suck at this." I actually have a doctor appointment tomorrow to see if there's anything else we can do to help Mother Nature.

Missy said...

That really sucks.

I say eat all the candy and watch all the Gilmore Girls you want.

God I love that show!

This makes me want to revisit it again too.

Ali said...

K - Just remember (and I'm saying this to remind myself as well) it took us 2 years to get Owen. Really, it can take awhile.

Colleen said...

I'm sorry you're going through this. It took us a long time to conceive our kids, too. Sometimes people still ask why our girls are so far apart in age (Really? Nearly four years is that far apart?) and I'm usually torn between answering "Why are you so nosy?" and "We didn't actually plan for them to be that far apart, we just couldn't get pregnant again."

And then there were the insensitive clods who (after we had #1 and were hoping for #2) said things like, "Just be happy with the child you have. You are lucky to have her." SO not helpful. I WAS happy with her, I KNEW we were lucky to have her, AND I wanted another child.

I'm still jealous of people who procreate easily sometimes, because I would have loved to have had more children. Just wasn't in the cards for us. I certainly hope another child is in the cards for you, and soon.